John Richard Brewer

1938 - 1987
LocationPlymouth
Age48 years
Date of Birth7/1938
Date of Death5/1987
Visitors1,004 since 16/06/2007
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Please light a candle for my dear dad, I was seperated from him when he and my mother split up
social services kept him away from me he died back in 1987 I was only 4 weeks old when I was put in
care.....I met him when I was older but sadly I was not ready to have him in my life,something I
will always regret......He was a very special man and I will always feel guilty for not giving him
break.....Dad I am so sorry....I love and miss you dearly.......

What can I say dad I never knew you growing up then I met you when I was 18 things didn't work
out for us did they dad ? well not until it was too late and I found out you died 6 years after you
actually passed I was devastated and my life has never been the same I break my heart often over you
and look at your picture all the time you mean so much to me and I am so sorry you had the life you
did and I am sorry that social services never gave you the chance to shine. I always have and
always will love you dad, I cant get over you and I will never forgive myself x x I am writing a
book now dad called cracked mirror and I hope it gets published its all about you mum and my life in
general as you know life was very hard for me but you never forgot me did you ? I know it was
painful for you to watch me grow up with other people life is cruel like it was cruel for you to go
without me saying sorry or goodbye. You have 2 grandchildren dad I have Cory who is 7 and little
Casey Paige Jon's little girl, he is wonderful and it hasn't been easy for any of us but
we have managed x I think of you all the time dad and I will miss you for ever I love you so much it
hurts. Rest In Peace darling dad your eldest daughter Nikola and grandson Cory x x x x x


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~ Snow ~
(Tessa Wilkinson)

The snow arrived unannounced.
It overwhelmed everything.
Changed the landscape so it was unrecognisable.
No one was prepared.
My grief feels like that snowstorm.
I feel changed, weighed down by the burden.
Trying to negotiate the new environment around me.
Not knowing where I am going.
Looking for familiar landmarks.
I feel cold and miserable and ill equipped in this new place unvisited before.
But I know in time the snow will melt and return the landscape to some semblance of normality.
And I know in time my grief will diminish and I will find my way forward again, back to a world that I recognise, changed, but familiar.
Spring does always come after winter and hope will return.

Mel Xxxxx 1 week ago

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♥ From Water Bug to Dragonfly ♥
(Tessa Wilkinson)

The bottom of the pond is muddy and dark
There is fear of the unknown
There is loneliness as things change
There is the desperation of being left behind
Not knowing, not understanding
Watching and waiting
Then the journey comes
Up the stem
What waits beyond?
Sunlight
Freedom
Dancing together in joy with those who went before
And who will come after.
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Mel Xxxxx 3 weeks ago

♥ The Only Way ♥
(Tessa Wilkinson)

• The only way we can be protected from the pain of loss and the grief we feel, is by having never loved.
• How empty our lives would be, and what a lot of wonderful shared moments we would have missed, if we had not known.
• So, although what we feel at the moment is terrible, we must try to remember that it is because we have all been privileged to have known and loved, that we now feel the pain and sadness.

Mel Xxxxx 3 weeks ago

♥ Only we who grieve ♥

♥ Tis only we who grieve
♥ They do not leave
♥ They are not gone
♥ They look upon us still
♥ They walk among the valleys now
♥ They stride upon the hill
♥ Their smile is in the summer sky
♥ Their grace is in the breeze
♥ Their memories whisper in the grass
♥ Their calm is in the trees
♥ Their light is in the winter snow
♥ Their tears are in the rain
♥ Their merriment runs in the brook
♥ Their laughter in the lane
♥ Their gentleness is in the flowers
♥ They sigh in autumn leaves
♥ They do not leave
♥ They are not gone
♥ tis only we who grieve.

♥ Author unknown ♥

Mel Xxxxx October 21, 2009

♥ I Believe ♥
(Written By Skip Ewing and Donny Keyes Copyright 2002)
(Song performed by Diamond Rio)

Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it's like you haven't been gone
A moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart I'm sure
We're closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see
I've got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

That when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you're gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I'm right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

Forever you're a part of me
Forever in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer if I can
The people who don't see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy
Then I am
'Cause I believe, oh I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, oh I believe
Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And I believe
'Cause I believe, oh I believe.

Mel Xxxxx October 18, 2009

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☼ The Sea and the Beach ☼
(Tessa Wilkinson)

The sea seems to illustrate pain and sorrow so well
It comes in and goes out
For a while it is there, overwhelming, covering everything
Then slowly the tide turns and it withdraws
For a while we can see the beauty of the shells, the seaweed
We can rejoice in the patterns in the sand
We can feel the corrugated ripples under our feet
Alive to what is around, and beyond
But then the tide turns and again it is all washed away, all overwhelmed
We feel like the crashing of the waves on rocks
Raw and out of control
Full of anger and rage
Battered and bruised
Tossed about like flotsam floating wherever we are thrown
There are so many questions. Why now? Why him?
But no answers
Then the sea calms and gently the waves lap the rocks
We are soothed and the inner turmoil is calmed
In time we can learn to move up the beach as the tide comes in
Out of its reach
Not to be overwhelmed
The pain is still there, but in control
We can recognise the pain
Revisiting the sadness
Acknowledging how much the person is missed
We learn to turn away and look to the future
Knowing the person will always be part of us
Always loved and always remembered

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Mel Xxxxx October 15, 2009

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~ Immeasurable (by Sean Ashcroft) ~

Laughter will still sound,
even though you’re gone.
But the decibels will dip,
with some smiles, painted on.
Hopes will still soar,
dreams float on high.
But the altitude will drop,
as will the supply.
Passion will still drive us,
desire wave us off.
But the revs will decline
and the engine might cough.
Time will be bejewelled,
lives lit by waltzing light.
But the carats will diminish,
its brilliance a lesser sight.
Yet memories have no volume,
love no mass nor weight.
These will broaden, widen, deepen,
a true measure of something great.

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Mel Xxxxx October 11, 2009

~ Life Beyond ~

Let them go, but not completely.
Hold on to them, but not too tightly.
Love them as you know you will,
as you always have.

Rejoice that they are well, the only difference
now is that you cannot see them,
But you feel them still and they will always be with you.
The spirit does not die as the body dies
and Love is of the spirit.

Nothing you have experienced together can be taken from you.
And your loved one shall be eternally yours in that love.
Weep not too long, that they may also cry,
But rejoice in their life and in yours also.
Let yours continue to be a celebration of all life; of your shared love,
Knowing that God holds you both in the palm of his hand
And in loving you both shall reunite you.

Author Unknown

Mel Xxxxx October 7, 2009

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•♥ Heaven ♥•

A silver thread that keeps me near
To those I love and hold so dear,
Will someday slip, and I'll swim free.
A soul afloat in a bounteous sea.
I'll also soar in maddening glee,
To places unseen by you and me.
Through darkest night and brightest day,
I'll fly to a far and magical bay.
In ethereal havens of love and peace,
My God-given life will never cease.
The passing of time will be obsolete ...
Travelling the auras, no great feat.
Don't you grieve, notice the sound
Of my songs to you with love abound.
I'll never leave you, don't you see?
I'll live with you, eternally!

(Carol Patterson Shott)

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Mel Xxxxx October 2, 2009

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ღ♥ღ Till Healing Comes ღ♥ღ

My heart is closing deep inside
from all the pain I feel;
while others are so full of joy
my hurt feels very real.
I want to find a bit of light
but part of me feels dead,
and though I see the joy around
my soul is sad instead.
It's hard to enter deeply in
when you're no longer here.
It's like the lights have all gone out
and won't be lighting up this year.
And so this year I must be
just how it is I am.
So that soon my heart can heal
I'll do the best I can.
The only thing that I can do
is to stay present in the now,
to feel my grieving pain
and trust I'll heal somehow.
As this year gently comes
and as my heart is torn in two.
I'll open just a little bit
as I'm deeply missing you.
I'll trust the gift of life that's here
and trust that I'm ok,
and be with how it is right now...
..till healing comes my way.

ღ♥ღ (by Bev Swanson) ღ♥ღ

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Mel Xxxxx September 30, 2009
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